Never have I ever …

Never have I ever been more tired & stressed out in my entire 26 years of life . Before I start let me just say that I LOVE my kids , they give me so much life . They are literally my motivation . Without them I’d probably be a drunk 27 year old working minimum wage . So , yes I’m going to rant about being a mom , but i really wouldn’t change it for the world .  
   I’m literally laying in bed , taking deep breaths & trying not to drive myself into a panic attack . I have about 8 loads of laundry to do , dishes piled up to the ceiling , the litter box needs to be changed and I didn’t prep my kids school clothes for tomorrow morning , so when we wake up it’s going to be a shit fest . They literally can’t function if their outfits aren’t laid out 5 inches away from their face for some odd reason . Now yes I know there’s starving kids in Africa and cats dying of disease so I shouldn’t be complaining, I should just be greateful , I’ve heard it a million times . I am grateful , I promise . I would just be a lot more grateful if my kids didn’t need to change clothes 78 times a day , or if maybe the cat didn’t shit so much !! I really don’t think 24 hours is enough , not for my to do list . 
  Now , unfortunately I’m not a stay at home mom , not that I could even handle that if I wanted to , so I wake up , work 8 hours , come home work another 8 hours for free , sleep for about 6 minutes and then boom I’m back at it again . Everyday . Lately however , it’s been really getting to me . The stress , the non stop hectic schedule , repeating myself 7 times every 10 seconds , and the non stop cleaning !!! I feel like I’ll never get caught up , and then I have to decide on what’s more importnat , bleaching the entire bathroom , or stopping to play dinosaurs and ponies with my littles ? I usually end up playing and then lose track of time and then we’re 30 minutes past bedtime , but we’re having so much fun we can’t stop !! But that’s what life is about right ? Yes , yes it is . I have to remind myself that the dishes will be there later , the clothes may be molded by the time they get washed , but they’ll be there . The moments with my kids won’t be . So , even though 89% of this blog was about complaints I have , never have I ever been more thankful to be stressed out and tired . My life is far from easy , it’s non stop , hectic , loud and messy . But never have I ever been more blessed . There’s always a light at the end of the tunnel , and If you drink enough Starbucks , you’ll eventually get there . 
So , with all of that being said , the good news is I’ve kept my mind off of my life long enough that I no longer fill a panic attack waiting to happen . AMEN . Now off to bed I go , because never have I ever been this tired in my life . 

Hashtagsinglemomoftwo : Blog One

Single mom of two here , FYI I’m new to this “blogging” thing , I’m not sure if I even know what a “blog” is but Ill try . I’m really just looking for an outlet of some sort I think , again I’m not really sure . But , one thing I do know is , this single mom stuff is for the BIRDS . Single moms are probably the most unappreciated people on earth , I mean sure our kids appreciate us but there’s not much a 3 year old can do to repay you . Now don’t get me wrong the ” I love you’s” are enough to literally melt your heart , but I’m here to just talk about the shit that doesn’t get talked about . The “mom melt downs” , the stares you get at the grocery store because you cant really control your tired kids while you hurry and get dinner before the next meltdown comes on , or praying to god that you get to pee alone just so you can have 2 minutes to yourself . Its real and it happens ,  but no one talks about it .

My apologies , I tend to ramble . if I don’t get it out while its on my mind , BOOM , its forgotten . Let me introduce myself , I’m from Texas , I’m 27 , a single mom , going through a divorce ( don’t pity me , the divorce has been a blessing ) , I have a 5 year old & a 3 year old and no sex life ! Lol that was a joke . I’m very blunt , I say what’s on my mind .  I believe in god , but don’t go to church . As I said I’m going through a divorce and recently single , after we separated I got into a relationship , yea I know what would god think right ? Well if your here to judge me please leave . I’m sure I’m just like tons of other moms out there , I’m trying to live a good life , be a good mom and provide for my kids all while trying to keep my compose , but life happens , shit happens . That’s what this blog is going to be about . Maybe while writing this ill find myself or some shit . Maybe ill get famous . Maybe someone will relate to me and not feel alone and not feel like a complete failure . Maybe it’ll be a huge waste of time , who knows . But lets give it a shot !!


P.s I have no clue what a blog is , how to format it or any of that . So if this looks like shit , my deepest apologies , I goggled enough to find this site and hit create . Like my life this will probably be a hot mess , go figure !  ENJOY !! 🙂